One more post then I'm off to do motherly things. I also found this cool "The Friday Five" group. Five questions asked, you post to your log and then see what others have said.
I'm looking forward to this, maybe give me a helpful insite to myself and you can see it too. I found the latest questions, from June 21st, so I will try this out and see what happens.

Do you live in a house, an apartment or a condo? House. Huge and nice, but still missing the main things I need in a home. Miss having a pool.

2. Do you rent or own? Rented. Bankruptcy does that kind of thing to you

3. Does anyone else live with you? Husband, daughter, son, 1 dog, fish

4. How many times have you moved in your life? oh gosh. From infancy? Too many to count and even then my parents were never in the military, nor were we poor. They liked to get into a home and fix it, make it look nice and then we moved to a bigger home. Homes: Over 30. Cities: 10

5. What are your plans for this weekend? Catch up on sleep. Haven't been sleeping well lately and I am looking forward to some nice cat naps during the day

wow.. that didn't hurt.

I BELIEVE IN YOU

The challenges you now confront
In all you're going through
Help me see the many ways
That I believe in you.

It's hard for me to realize
The things that you must face;
And though I try I can't completely
Step into your place.

But something in my knowledge
Of the depth and soul of you
Gives to every real concern
An optimistic hue

For when you must respond to life
With pure determination,
Your answer to the challenge
Is a source of inspiration.

And though each day's uncertainty
The future oft obscures,
My hope for you is strong
And my belief in you endures
-Bruce B. Wilmer

I need to believe in myself now. :)

eeesh. I know I'm ready to walk away from my graphic design job when I argue at code that will not work properly for me. Or am I describing every other coder in the world at one point in time?

I like looking at other people's blogs. I mean, if they are so honest to show thier lives, can I take a peek? I found one person's blog just so neat. I loved the lay out (I didn't steal it, but I was able to search for it at blogskins and get it) and for a second I wished I had her life. Not her love life, but just her up bringing (she's Greek) and what she does for a living (caterer). Now of course, she may be totally miserable and I don't realize it, but she gave her age and already in her mid 20's, she has fired someone. Of course, no one wants to do that, and I wouldn't either, but I guess that would be on a list of things I have never done. And I would only want to fire the ones who laid me off from my other jobs. (sigh.. so un Go-Give to say that).

Anway. New look, new attitude. Will post pictures soon of things I want. You, my blog has turned into my virtual goal poster.

It's late, but I have to post. If I was to die tonight, I would die a very happy woman. Tonight was awards night. You would think that with every week all the little goodies I get in recognition, that awards night would not be different, how wrong I was. Your now reading the message board of Miss Go-Give 2002. My Unit, my director, my friends thought I was Miss Go-Give of the year. What an honor. What a thrill, oh gosh I hope my make-up didn't run while I was crying. Ok, major vain there, but you're talking to the girl who was most picked on in the 1970's to early 80's. The girl most likely to be picked on, teased. I have come such a long way.

Tonight I earned a silver jewelry box with Miss Go-Give 2002 engraved on it. To date, my most cherished gift ever in my Mary Kay business. (The car comes next). Another rewarding moment, tonight on the way to the meeting, I looked in the mirror and saw that my face has cleared up. A sign that stress has moved out of my life and that I am at peace with myself. That alone was a defining moment and set me into tears. I'm ready for the next step. I need to get busy. I need some facials to do for Fri. and I'm ready to rock and roll now.

Your not only looking at Miss Go-Give, your looking at a Future Director. I'm ready for the Plum suit. I wore a purple dress tonight, I thought I looked great, I think I'll look even better in the Plum Director suit.

So it's been 2 weeks. Last week my daughter had a melt down and I realized that she needed me more then my meeting did. What a joy it is to say "ok, tonight my daughter needs me" and spend time with her. I ended up taking her to the meeting so I could let my Director know I wouldn't be there, and let her peek into my "pink bubble" world. I then took her out for dinner and a hair cut. Spent money that was fun.

This week is exciting. Since my Director can't go to Seminar this year, we are doing our "mini" awards tonight. Having never been to Seminar, I'm not sure what to expect. I tried to blow this night off in the sense of "it's any other Mary Kay night", but when you are pushed with the idea of "dress up in semi-formal or formal wear", it makes me wonder, ok, what is going to happen tonight. I haven't done anything big this year except raise my income a little, so it's not like I'm expecting to be awarded anything, but with my Unit and Stephanie, I'm never sure what will happen. :)

I guess the biggest support came to me when I had a nitch in the dress area. My darling husband has been supportive to a degree. How much? Well, last year he paid for me to go to Retreat when I couldn't come up with the money, and he bought me some cool address labels for my birthday that says Mary Kay Representive on them (oh yes, and Dale Jarrett's #88 and signature too!). Anyway - I ordered a dress from ebay (not a brite move) and even wrote to the seller and made sure it was my size. How does one person get confused that a MEDIUM dress can fit a 1X to 2X chic? And did I mention it's a sweater dress? Long Sleeves? HELLO?

So I explain to darling husband my problem and he comes up with a great idea and even supports it with some money. Find a consignment shop and keep it under $50. I know, awards night, 24 hours away, how am I going to find something like that? I hit the jackpot. Found it in the first store. Nice thing is, it's a little big. :) Can wear it in the winter time and summer and it's drop dead gorgeous and wearable for work. I not only get this dress, but I pay much less then the $50, and it's a brand new dress, never worn, tags still on it from the store. Dang.. Mary Kay herself would have been so proud. :)

The hours get shorter now, and the nerves are kicking in high gear. My best friend Julie is going to do my eye make-up, not my best area. It is now time to get this show on the road and knock them dead.

If I don't have a heart-attack of nerves first.